Post Mid-Terms' Week
Hello Friends!
I am back, and have made it alive from midterms week! Whew! WHAT. A. DOOZIE.
I have to take a moment to thank you all for reading along with my journey of life. I can tell you, the more you know, the more you know you don't know!
I have been super tired and spread thin, once again, but I want to share some things about that. Why? Well, not because I want to be a downer. No way do I want to EVER be a downer! BUT, I am starting to realize that we all have those moments, days, or even weeks that just feel out of whack. Something is strikingly out of balance and we feel like we especially do not have everything together!!! I think that there is something powerful and freeing about admitting that we are flawed and imperfect, and I think that as we are empowered to accomplish things through the Power of the Holy Spirit in spite of our weaknesses...well, I think that gives Our God of Miracles some glory!!
So, like Paul writes, I will boast in my weakness because it is in my point of weakness that God can show how He works the most marvelously!
In the next few weeks, I will share a couple of those trials. They will be trials and things that I struggle with right here, in the present. I have to admit, I usually don't share my current struggles with the world- just the ones that I feel like are under control and taken care of. But I know too many people that feel alone in struggles, feeling like they are the only one going through something that is scary or frightening or full of shame to not show them that even I struggle. I have been privileged to be in positions of leadership with my peers, and I am honored. I am honored to serve other students and to be an example, truly. But God has spoken to me that I am to be a "Broken Leader," and as I have been praying about what that looks like, I feel that God is leading me to be more open about what is going on in my life whereas I would usually shut myself into an introverted lock box where nobody could see what is happening inside.
I asked God why. Why is that ever a good idea? I have been doing things one way for my whole life and now You want to change this? I thought things were going just fine, God?
Here is what I understand about the 'why' at this point:
If we are all broken and in need of a Savior, then why do we pretend we are not broken? Adam and Eve in Genesis 3 hid their sin and shame because they were naked and afraid (verse 10). Sometimes we run and hide from God or God's people because we are afraid of letting what we've done come into the light.
Adam and Eve had woven fig leaves (verse 7) to cover their shame- and mankind hasn't changed all that much friends, because we still are trying to cover up our shame! Trying to cover it up from each other and from God- but then the enemy just uses that to isolate us and quietly condemn us until it eats us alive!
This is why I am going to share. My part in being what I feel like God is calling me to as a Broken Leader is to be real and transparent and honest that life is indeed hard, but that as Christians we walk towards Christ. Yes. We get off-kilter. That is part of growing as a Christian in a fallen, broken, world. But where do we reset our direction? That is what it comes down to. Reset your direction on Jesus Christ. He is the author and perfecter of our faith.
Don't hide your present struggles and wrestlings with your flesh and spirit. God knows it all already, and guess what?!? HE STILL LOVES YOU. Now that, I might never understand. I guess love just doesn't really makes sense, especially perfect love... I am still seeking to understand that!
As I wrestle, fall down, and try to walk this faith walk, I hope and pray that you will be able to see that I am weak, but He is strong. I hope you can see that even though I am far from the perfect that I so badly want to be, I am learning to leave room for His Grace, because He says it is sufficient and I am going to live like I believe that. And lastly, I hope that you can see that when I do fall down, that I turn to Christ and walk back to the foot of Calvary, where I am humbled and changed in the presence of an Almighty, Miraculous, Gracious God and King.
Join me as, together, we fall down and redirect ourselves toward Jesus Christ.
Blessings,
Melissa XOXO
I am back, and have made it alive from midterms week! Whew! WHAT. A. DOOZIE.
I have to take a moment to thank you all for reading along with my journey of life. I can tell you, the more you know, the more you know you don't know!
I have been super tired and spread thin, once again, but I want to share some things about that. Why? Well, not because I want to be a downer. No way do I want to EVER be a downer! BUT, I am starting to realize that we all have those moments, days, or even weeks that just feel out of whack. Something is strikingly out of balance and we feel like we especially do not have everything together!!! I think that there is something powerful and freeing about admitting that we are flawed and imperfect, and I think that as we are empowered to accomplish things through the Power of the Holy Spirit in spite of our weaknesses...well, I think that gives Our God of Miracles some glory!!
So, like Paul writes, I will boast in my weakness because it is in my point of weakness that God can show how He works the most marvelously!
In the next few weeks, I will share a couple of those trials. They will be trials and things that I struggle with right here, in the present. I have to admit, I usually don't share my current struggles with the world- just the ones that I feel like are under control and taken care of. But I know too many people that feel alone in struggles, feeling like they are the only one going through something that is scary or frightening or full of shame to not show them that even I struggle. I have been privileged to be in positions of leadership with my peers, and I am honored. I am honored to serve other students and to be an example, truly. But God has spoken to me that I am to be a "Broken Leader," and as I have been praying about what that looks like, I feel that God is leading me to be more open about what is going on in my life whereas I would usually shut myself into an introverted lock box where nobody could see what is happening inside.
I asked God why. Why is that ever a good idea? I have been doing things one way for my whole life and now You want to change this? I thought things were going just fine, God?
Here is what I understand about the 'why' at this point:
If we are all broken and in need of a Savior, then why do we pretend we are not broken? Adam and Eve in Genesis 3 hid their sin and shame because they were naked and afraid (verse 10). Sometimes we run and hide from God or God's people because we are afraid of letting what we've done come into the light.
Adam and Eve had woven fig leaves (verse 7) to cover their shame- and mankind hasn't changed all that much friends, because we still are trying to cover up our shame! Trying to cover it up from each other and from God- but then the enemy just uses that to isolate us and quietly condemn us until it eats us alive!
This is why I am going to share. My part in being what I feel like God is calling me to as a Broken Leader is to be real and transparent and honest that life is indeed hard, but that as Christians we walk towards Christ. Yes. We get off-kilter. That is part of growing as a Christian in a fallen, broken, world. But where do we reset our direction? That is what it comes down to. Reset your direction on Jesus Christ. He is the author and perfecter of our faith.
Don't hide your present struggles and wrestlings with your flesh and spirit. God knows it all already, and guess what?!? HE STILL LOVES YOU. Now that, I might never understand. I guess love just doesn't really makes sense, especially perfect love... I am still seeking to understand that!
As I wrestle, fall down, and try to walk this faith walk, I hope and pray that you will be able to see that I am weak, but He is strong. I hope you can see that even though I am far from the perfect that I so badly want to be, I am learning to leave room for His Grace, because He says it is sufficient and I am going to live like I believe that. And lastly, I hope that you can see that when I do fall down, that I turn to Christ and walk back to the foot of Calvary, where I am humbled and changed in the presence of an Almighty, Miraculous, Gracious God and King.
Join me as, together, we fall down and redirect ourselves toward Jesus Christ.
Blessings,
Melissa XOXO
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